so most people told me that work would be overwhelming. WHATEVER. okay, so it is. bleh. i don't feel like i have any free time anymore. i'm very angry today. i'm not sure why. i've been trying to rationalize how i feel, to stop being in such a bad mood, but it's not working. i feel like a lot of this is stemming from work. and it's all going to blow up on wesley, which is horrible. i don't want to be angry, but ..

maybe i should try the buddhist thing where i accept my irrationality. but i'm not buddhist. however, i don't understand it. i'm very ignorant. i choose not to believe a number of religions and theories and mock them, but i don't know what i'm mocking. i don't know what i'm ridiculing. why don't i believe in god? because as a child, i never believed in a higher power. that's only because i didn't see enough of the world. i can always enlighten myself, can't i? the thought of an "omni-benevolent god" seems so far-fetched to me, though. but how else did the universe come into being? science makes as much sense to me as religion does. the only reason i believe in science and not in religion is because i was taught it from grades 1 - 12. i wasn't taught about god. that's the only difference. my faith is flimsy and tenable. is that the word? no, it means exactly the opposite of what i wanted. XD meh.

i want some alone time. i want some time to tcg. i know that's really stupid; tcg is no reality. but what is reality? does this life matter? that's a really stupid question. before i know it, i'm going to start using philosophy as an excuse to skimp out on life.

All right! It ended up snowing. :D Of course, I think this was more around the morning than last night, which is when they said it was going to be, but oh well! More time to finish Philosophy and study for Psych. :D But what am I doing right now? Browsing LJ! Aren't I great. :D .. I miss Christina being onlineee. ;o; *whine* At least she'll have electricity soon! :D But that doesn't mean she'll have internet. *mumble*

Work wasn't so bad. HAHA I have a crush on one of the workers. Silly Chanda. XD Work is pretty easy once you get used to it. I think it's just memorizing the UPC codes and standing for 5+ hours that's gonna be a biatch. I can't really do anything about that though than SUCK IT UP. haha. PAYCHECK ON THURSDAY YESS. Also I start work at 4pm so I can pick it up, go somewhere, and then come back to be tortured. :D TOMORROW I'M WORKING FROM 3pm - 9:30pm THOUGH. WHAT THE HELL IS THAT? 6 hours!? D: Man. At least I have work off on Wednesday, which is half day. I won't have any time to do homework or anything. But why do I keep ranting about homework anyway, it's my last year of high school. It's not like any work I do now actually matters. .. .. *sniff*

It's supposed to be snowing tomorrow. I love how they said it was 80% but now it's 30%. Honestly. XD

I miss jrock. BUT I'M TOO LAZY TO LISTEN TO IT. (<3 isshi)

Lisa gave me my work schedule yesterday. I work every day of the week except for Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. ee. Wednesday's half day, so I definitely want to spend that with Wesley .. but I also need a day for seeing the doctor's. hmm. Maybe I can ask Lisa & Christina if they want to hang out tomorrow, so I can schedule the eye doctor's on Monday .. I really don't want to go to the eye doctor's on Friday. T^T

I'm happy with life at the moment, although I'm prepared to be overwhelmed by work. At the same time, should I really be so worried? Worrying doesn't help in any way. I just can't help cringing at the thought of a line full of customers who are all buying produce .. GAH I HATE PRODUCE CODES. wtf man. Why can't they put stickers on all of the items. @___@

Well, at least I'll have a paycheck I suppose.

It's supposed to be snowing really badly later today, and then tomorrow, too. I think I said that last post. Anyway. I hope there won't be school. I need an extra day to work on studying for Psychology. I just remembered! There won't be any school tomorrow, since that's Martin Luther King Jr. Day. :D The bad part of that is that the Crime & Prejudice reading is due the day after that. mannn.

I wish someone would teach me how to drive. Maybe I should get off my lazy ass and call uncle. -_-

Is it weird that, because it's snowing here, that I want to have a cheerful, Spring layout? It's so pretty, isn't it? As you might be able to tell, I've just discovered the beauty of S2 layouts. XD They're so neat!

The end of this week came so fast. I think it was because of work. ^^;; At the same time, it feels like it's been forever since Monday. @__@ What's up with me? Earlier in Creative Writing, I asked Linda why she wasn't here yesterday. Her response: "I was here yesterday. o.o" Cue hysterical laughing and, "you're a weirdo." XD I don't know. It feels like it's been forever .. *mumbles*

I've paid Ally the $125. Just $5 more! :D Then I can pay my mom $20 for the bus pass she bought me. ^^;; Isn't it great how I'm using my first two paychecks to pay debts? XD After that I'm going to deposit my money in the bank. :]

I hung out with Wesley (<3) after school today. :3 It was raining a loooot. XD We ate at Green Bamboo. He took a break from his vegetarianism (gasp!) to eat with me. :P Funny thing is, neither of us were actually hungry lolol. oh, Before this, we went to CVS with Ally, where she bought a prepaid credit card. Anywho. Wesley bought me a bag of Valentine's candy (since i wanted it, haha ..) and we headed on over to his house. We hung out for an hour before I had to leave. XD yeah, Having a car would be so much more convenient .. -_-;

I ended up talking with Kevin the bus driver again. XD This time one of his friends (i don't remember his name @_@) entered the bus with us and chatted. haha. Turns out there's going to be two huge snowstorms headed our way Monday & Tuesday. If it's in the morning, yay no school! Not to mention it's quarterly week next week too. :3 I really hope I don't get work on Wednesday .. I wanna hang out with Wesley .. ._.;

I went on hiatuses for Adagielle & Critical Hit, but I just e-mailed Wing "NEVERMIND!!" back, and I think I'll be doing that to Seiya as well. XD;;

I should sleep soon .. *yawn*